My dear son

 {2mos old}

I cant believe your almost Two! 22 months to be exact.

Today was a very frustrating day, Mommy had little to no sleep. After pulling an all niter writing, or trying to manifest together my thoughts. 6am came rather quick, I was already up to get Autumn ready for school. I surprised her by putting a light bulb in her new turtle nightlight{this girl has more neon in her room than your nearest bar! I added a red bulb because when it shines through the turtles shell it kind of glows a hint of purple since its blue & green. While she gets ready Oatmeal w/ a glass of milk does us both good. It turned out OK, not my best, not realizing I didn't have brown sugar is the reason. But I made it work. After they left, I began to do a little yoga before baby wakes up. Listening to Rhonda Byrne "The Secrets" to get me where I want my meditation to take me. I wake up on my yoga mat.

Its now 9am and Steven wakes up with tears in his eyes. I try to console him but nothing works, with me being so sleepy it didn't help. We lay on the couch and both fall back to sleep. Its now 3, and he's still being whine and only wants me to hold him. Its like he wanted to get closer but just couldn't. He sat in my lap as I typed, and checked email. Well, what he allowed me to check anyway. He wouldn't even let me go pee!

You followed me around, didn't want me to put you down. You wouldn't go to daddy or cousin Austin. Another crying hour what can I do to stop this? I'm trying everything in my mommy bag but its simply not working. Daddy is ready to really jump in and discipline but mommy is understanding and believes its a reason for the behavior and unhappiness you were showing. Hugs and hugs and more hugs, as you squeeze your little arms tighter around my neck I embrace your little hug. Today you were really showing how much of a mommies boy you are. I always put in existence that "I didn't want a mommy's boy" I wanted a little man like daddy. I think the words that the universe received was, "I want a mommy's boy" and I want him to only love me! Trust me he has his days when he wants absolutely nothing to do with me.

He's daddies little Big Guy.

The cutest thing, after coming up from the basement I find daddy & baby cuddled on the couch.  Steven jumps up grabs my hand & points to the couch. I laid down w/ daddy, then he wants me to pick him up so he can lay on me. Its like he said we're out of order, its daddy first, then mommy then me.

He lays back and drinks his sippy. I love this little boy!

Steven your so amazing! I can't believe your putting puzzles together w/ ease. I love your personality{though we need to work on your unruly manners} Your still a pretty cool dude. Learning everyday is want mommy wants you to do until your two. We're going to start potty training and playing school like we used to. Mommy will get back to being your teacher and you my student. I love you my baby, you fill my heart with Joy. I love your smile and how you only want me. People may talk about how spoiled you are but you know what I say? I don't care. Your going to be small for only so long so I want to preserve what we've got at this very moment in time, before I'm buying a car for your prom. Mommy doesn't care what they say your going to remain my baby until my last day. Discipline you still need along w/ manners and etiquette too! Mommy will teach you all those thing so your a perfect gentleman too! You'll open doors, say please & thank you or sign it like you always do. Remember to say your prayers, and stay true to your heart. Don't lie to the girls, always be a gentleman. 

Steven,

Mommy and Daddy have been teaching you sign language since you were a baby. You began to sign back at 10 mos. Now the many signs you know are amazing! Dog & cat you learned with ease. We didn't really learn mommy and daddy since you said them so well. Airplane and helicopter you make the same (but there not). Please & thank you and I apologize too! ball, balloon, bubbles, milk, juice, water, hurt, more, all done, giraffe, elephant, horse, squirrel, book, & I love you. I know there are more and were still learning animals and all the things you adore.

 

 Right now your favorites are: Curious George, you've been listening to classical music since the day you were born. I don't know if you like it yet but you never complain. You love your little Kawasaki power wheel, Books are your FAV, you used to love guitars like you love George, I think you still do. You play your drums daily, and our acoustic in the living room I hear you strum once in a while I know you still love the sound. You also Adore airplanes & helicopters. Cars & Trains.

Did I tell you about the day you wanted to fly? Watching Curious George jump from a helicopter. That day you understood me so well. Your answers were so right on like you really knew what was going on.

Mommy: Steven do you think you can fly?

Steven: Nods Yes.

Mommy: Steven, do you want to jump from a helicopter?

Steven: Nods yes. 

Mommy: Steven, you Do know that you can't really fly? 

Steven; Nods yes. 

Mommy: You know you can't jump without a parachute right?

Steven: Nods yes.

Mommy: Do you want to fly an airplane one day?

Steven: nods Yes.

I laughed and made a promise to you that day. 

I promised that one day when your older, we'll take a trip and fall from the sky

Like George & the man in the yellow hat.

Until then,
Mommy will always catch you, 
 when you fall.