Belly bump at 24 weeks

Weighing in at 122, I am not due until Dec. 1
I h gotten so big, its crazy. When I was pregnant with my son, my b.elly didn't pop out until about this time.
I've had this belly since about 15 weeks, and this time around I have gotten all these "normal" pregnancy symptoms that I didn't have with my son.
From morning sickness that continues, and neaseua. Smells that turn my stomach, non stop headaches, Heartburn and the list continues.
As I enter my 25th week I only pray that she lightens up a little on me

Princess' firsts

My lovely father in-law, whom I lovw dearly had this table in one of his many sales.

I spotted it before we even knew we were going to expect a girl. I loved it! Its purple and pink. I love the embrodery on the top and bottom piece. the more I looked at it I saw more colors as the light hit it. I then had to move it to the basement storage because I didnt want to dream of my daughters nursery if it were a boy, this was after a week with it just being in the living rom.

Now I can't wait to find glass squares for its surface because it is soft and a lamp or baby monitor would not sit even.

My only dilmemea are the colors I want for her nursery, they will be fushia,  and a black and white damask print.

I'm not sure on how i'm going to tie in the table the way it is or how I would change the legs of the table. The legs are of brighter pink and purple not the same as the top and tassles they are more fushia and a deeper purple. Whats crazy is the week I had it up in the living room I saw the table change and at times the legs would match and at times it didn't.

This little adorable find was from carseatcanapoy.com

Hubby and I went to motherhood maturnity to use a giftcard I had from steven's baby shower. After a few bras and prego pops we came home to an abundance of super cool baby coupons and one of them was for $50 off the canapoy but once I saw the entire sets I had to have it!

I had already planned on getting one from ritzybaby but after the little research i found out that I got five pieces instead of two. With ritizybaby you only recieved the carseat cover, umbrella hood, and strap covers, Everything elese was extra. Carseatcanapoy had the seatcover plus the head support and blanket with umbrella hood and the canapoy that completly covers baby, whereas ritizy baby is only calling the hood the canapoy, i think because i didnt see one on their site. If you look at them the quality was better too!

Ritizybaby

 

not the same one i wanted to order

but you can clearly see the sloppiness of the seat.

carseatcanapoy

This is the one I ordered and I absolutely love iT!

Its so soft can't wait to put her in it.

The whole Caboodle:

1. Minky slip cover
2. Minky head support pillow
3. Lap blanket w/ minky underside
4. Umbrella with minky lining
5. Carseat canapoy with minky interior and 100% cotton outer

I only spent $43.00

The set was the same as ritzy baby $80

 So why spent Eighty for three pieces when you could get five?

Wordless Wednesday....Saturday

My Big little man!

Never thought I could love someone so much!

You always make mommy smile

no matter what mood i'm in.

Getting my licsence back

At my driving class that will last he next five hours, hope i can last.

Just paid 135 since I rescheduled it twice already, 25 per rechduling fee.

Note to the under 21's:
Pay your tickets, my licence was suspended because of not taking care of them in a timely manner,being young and stupid,and thinking I was invincible. Oh ad by not having the parental guidance of a father whom I was taking to work since at the time my pregnant sister couldn't, she had just gotten the car so her insurance and registration was in her purse, yes the car was my sisters and a situation could have gone away if I wasn't such a feather head. I was back ad fourth to Cali, Chicago and NYC at the time working. My priorities were different and never though that it would turn to 1500 dollar mistake. This happened in 2008.

Proud to say that its over now and I will be back behing the wheel again soon, Can't wait!

Wordless Wednesday

A day at the zoo w/ Father & son

Look who's in the paper...

Another late holiday post

Memorial day, 

We spent it under a tent watching the St. Claire Shores parade. It was a blast! My sister in-law and I packed lunch, we both have two year old boys and our eight year old. The day was sunny, hot with a sprinkle here and there. Not enough to ruin our day!

After the tent was up the bar which we were in front of had their grill going and as the winds picked up, they almost lost there tent. My husband who is very experienced in putting up and taking thoes tents down instantly jumped up, not before he wispered that they were going to lose it before they did but he likes to predict the future sometimes, in this case he was right. Since the tent was in the parking lot it was little they could tie the ropes down with. So my hunny sujested that they tie them on cars and what ever was around heavy enough to where the tent won't lift. The did and my super husband saved the day. We still payed for the hot dogs and drinks, but its ok. Steven got alot of attention dancing with the DJ while we were waiting for the parade to begin.

A photographer off to the side couldn't help but take pictures of him and his cool moves.

He worked for the town paper, don't know if he made it but its still cool.

Happy Holiday!! Our Memorial Day was Grand!!

Anyone ever see Angeles? Well you won't believe this

The photo reads
12-11-2011 9:01

If your like me...
who imports all pictures to your PC

then keep snapping pictures without

ever really seeing what you got

Until your good and ready to Edit, Post and Print.

That's me!

Today is 01-28-2012

A normal day w/ baby and I

painting, coloring and reading

what we love to do. Once he fell asleep

I started to organize the mess of my picasa folders

and edit a few pictures. I come across a folder of Steven and Jeremiah

I thought in my head "are any of these worth saving"?

The boys were in PJ's and steven had a dirty face

so actually i was thinking about disguarding the folder

but as I begin to edit the pictures they are rather good.

As I continue to edit a picture of the boys,

I noticed little orbs over J's face

so be started to like the pic more

I went to type

"Cousins"

"We got each others back"

I deleted it and changed it to "A shoulder to lean on"

I deleted it by mistake to change the font then my PC froze and stopped working.

I figured I'd keep out the words since this experience happened

I think she wanted it that way.

I felt it then.

I knew someone was there but i did't know

what they wanted, Scared? Never

Just accepting.

I closed all the opened programs and tried it again,

I opened picasa

and continued to edit the pictures

I come across a picture of Steven sitting on the couchw/ his guitar

I was using the black&white feature

while taking the pictures.

They came in a 3 sequence frame.


1).


2).

3).

You tell me what you see,

No photo editing other than what i've stated.

Here are the pictures with and without the effect.

With HDR-ish

Without HDR-ish effect

The picture didn't catch my attention until

I did the HDR-ish effect {to Emulate "that high dynamic range" look}

Then I saw it

I knew she was there all the time

and My uncle, Whom Steven carries his name
I see smiling too, I miss that face.
Though a little scary, I have to see through the fear
to see the man I remember.
In Grandmas arms as they watch over my baby.
I was speechless and still am.

Absolutely Amazing!

What I see before my eyes

reminds me of what I so long for what I miss so much....

FAMILY!

The backbone, The Strength, The Power, The Wisom

It seems like everytime a person dies life changes.

I remember as a little girl having 4th of July picnic's every year

For my Great grandma, Nonie, whom lived to be 102.

She died in 1996. That same year,
In December my uncle Steve was killed.
The Picnic's stopped.

I was 12.

Living in California,
where it was awkard to be ME.

My uncle was killed and buried before I knew he was gone.

Since it was Christmas

They waited till after to tell me.
Things Adults do. smh

The last memory I have is
crying my eyes out at the airport

before I moved to LA.

I wanted to see Uncle Steve,
Vari & Autumn before I left.

It never happened.

When I was told
"The Angles took Uncle Steve home"

I didn't quite understand what that meant

I never cried.

That following summer I returned to the the D

I remember My Auntie Sandy was taking me to see Uncle Steve,

At 13, it still wasn't registering where he was.

As we pull up to the Cemetary it sets in.

As we get out the car all I did was cry my eyes out.

I didn't even get to say goodbye.

I still have my bear I hold dear.

My Auntie Val,

was called by the Angels in 2005 to return home.
Auntie Mama, she was to the nieces.

A woman I loved, respected, and apreciated in my life.

She taught me Strong values, business, Educiation, responsibilty
and so much more.

Not giving up a fight even if it takes your life

Cancer took hers away.

It still wasn't until I got older to actually understand & apreciate
Life.

I'm still learning everyday to apreciate what I have

Something my husband reminds me of daily.

" See, I did marry a good guy Auntie" .

Anyway, the longer I stare at this picture

I 'm seeing more, then I opened my eyes
to my grandmothers arms.

Grandma,

whom I lost in the following year 2006.

Cancer took her away as well.

I miss her laugh. And our long talks.

Macaroni and cheese, fried chicken, and greens

with pea soup.

Wisdom is this womans name.

and Master Chef is her game

The Clean Plate Club creator.

The most honest person you would of ever met.

Born with a silver tounge,
and she spoke & lived it daily.

With out this woman there would be no me.

These are the Strongest people I know,

The most honest
and your just not going to get any more REAL than them.

I think about the times we shared and the laughs we had,

wishing there were more.

Wishing my son could experience the same love.

Realizing that he does.

Amazed, how this came to me
I thought they were gone but they were here all along.

A shoulder to lean on.

Thank you for staying around,

I needed your guidance on the right path.

The first time Uncle Steve came to visit I was 16,
He has now gotten his wings.
but not fully.
I'm begining to see another face in his,
and it kinda scares me,
When I first noticed the picture in the photo I saw him perfectly.
Great big smile with his pimp hat on.
imperfect face but his smile stood out strong.
He had to show me it was him
or it would of scared me.

Thank you for remembering me,
I think i've answered my own question.

I could never forget what has never left.
The physical you is no longer here but your spirit remains.


When I feel like i'm losing faith you always know when to appear.

Thank you for showing your self, I needed that reminder.

I love you more than words can express,

I will only continue to do my best.
I know, I'm proud of me too!

I know you've met Steven,
you talk to him all the time.

I knew you were eventually coming,
I just didnt know how.

Sending love and hugs to the highest skys

continue to bless us with your presence.

I know there is a meaning behind everything

I'm still looking for a meaning to, why me?

How me?

That question still ponders in my mind all the time.

I pushed them away for so long I wasn't sure what to expect.

You remembered I don't like scary things,

Thank you for that smile Uncle Steve I needed it. I see you.

Its been a long time, but I remember!

Never again
will I second guess your memory,
because it lives within me & Steven.
Watching as I grow and mature,

and raise a genius to be so pure.
And to see this Great man he will become.

The face I see in the photo.

And this is the smile I see.

I will post the pic of him the way I see him in the photo

once its located.

In the photo he has on a Hat.

Enegries are all around us...the conclusion

I stare at this picture I keep wondering why does this happen to me?
Ever since I was 16 Uncle Steve came to visit me, I was having the hardest time dealing with death/loss.
His form was small, and not a figure of a person at all, just a tiny glowing light with fluttering wings.
When he came to visit he was on my mind, I was emotional about how I never said goodbye. 
I didn't see his face but I knew it was him. He came and wiped my tears away.

I've had many experiences over the years, resulting of the many lives lost
They had a special place in my heart.
They never scared me only made questions arise, why visit me? What is the message your sending to me? Am I suppose to be some sort clairvoyant? Talking to the dead?

The thought frightens me.
I remember when i was younger watching Sylvia Brown,
her connections were very interesting to me.
Never would I imagine that I was being prepared for what my future holds.
This is not me!
I don't like scary things. But pure and happy enegries protects me.
I have to be older and alot wiser to accept the things I hear, feel, and now certainly see.

Eventhough I feel as if the people that visit me are people I know,
I'm not ready to let the ones enter whom I have no connection with.
I can't stop staring at this picture.
 it is like i'm looking at something not real.
I can't explain it, its too sureal for me to even understand.
All I know is everything happens for a reason.
 I'm just trying to figure out how it relates to me.
 I know my personal views and beliefs on the situation but not the technichal
aspects on the spiritual beings presence.
What is the meaning when Angels come to visit?
This has my mind so boggled its crazy!

As I stare at this picture more and more I'm seeing what my sister and aunt sees,
They see nonnie, my great grand mother whom was french and indian, she lived to be 102.
I didn't see her at first because I was too young to really remember her face,
my fondest memory of her was that her favorite color was green, because it was the color of money.
I remember she used to sit on her hair, a long braid down her back.

Many things still concerns me.
What made me swith from taking color pictures to using the B&W effect?
Im looking at the pictures of the entire day with the boys,
I begin to see orbs in the pictures w/ the boys,  Jeremiah (who shares Auntie Val's face)
didn't smile in any of the pictures and its like he knew they were there and they frightened him.

In one pic Steven has his arm around Jeremiah and it looks like he's telling him don't be scared they won't hurt you.

 

After he left is when I continued to take pictures of just Steven and his guitar.
I'm studying the pictures and I think he knew they were there.
After they left he stopped playing with the guitar. SMH.

I'm not telling you to believe what I believe or see what I see. You can't see my Angeles if they don't want you to see them. There here for me.

12/11/2011
what DOES THIS MEAN?
.....SILENCE....
i just called Mike, a man i met last week w/ dad. His store is "The Akashic Corner" on Gratiot.
i had a few questions and I knew he would be able to answer a few of them. I really didn't go into detail about the photo, I just asked about the symbol of spirits he left on the back of his business card.

One symbol is in the photo he drew two one the card.
 This also strike me like WHOA!
I asked what does one symbol mean?

it means that this person was on God's left hand side
he was murdered or committed murder
he basically told me that this person has many lessons to learn to gain the second symbol
but he has his chance because the person that killed him is about to die or face judgement day in
where he will get his justice 
He also told me that when spirits come there will be a glowing light on the right side and thoes are the murdered souls who want justice.

He then tells me to get a book and call him when i do. At first I was all for reading this book to gain more knowlegde on the spirit world, then I spoke w/ my father in-iaw and he shined the light on not reading
something that will bring more spirits to you that you dont want.

I keep bringing them to me, I call them.
if we're all Enegries don't you think they would feel my enegry drawing them to me?
Damn! this is deep. i need some time to think....

01/31/11
I put down all technology for the next day
I had to meditate hard and clear my mind. Though the enegries weren't negative the thought of thinking they were here
began to frighten me. I didn't want to be left alone.
I know being 27 and I'm scard of a damn ghost, but who wouldn't? When the proof is in the pic. I have always felt the enegries over the years but never have I been
so frightened I couldn't sleep. I mean, I didnt want to be left alone. If I dosed off I would wake up and find my husband, I laugh about it now, but I was really freaked.
Thinking about spirits that I know is one thing, I know the ones that love me would never try to hurt me, but the thought of
letting ones in that do began to get to me.
I dont want to open the door and not beable to close it.
As I try to recap the day by looking at the 30 pictures I took that day of steven and Jeremiah
Im trying to remember what wwe did
and how I was feeling, the things that went on and emotions that day.
I begin to remember, looking at what pictures I took of the boys in every picture Jeremiah's face is the same.
His expression show fear and I start to remember he was rather fussy that day w/ me, not really crying but wanting to be held and not left alone.
I didnt catch it then, but as I recap that day its clear to me now. They were here.
When I get to the pictures of steven after Jeremish left is when I am remembering the last photo when he is done with the guitar and is crawling to me.
I felt the enegries then, and so did steven, I'm remembering holding him as they flew by. I remember when the came to visit, I called on them that day.
When mommy and tony came to pick up Jeremiah, he was so ready to go, he put his own coat on. He wanted to leave there so fast, at the time I wondered why?
Now I know,

So, in conclusion to my spritual experience. I now feel like my questions are answered.
I did put it out in the universe that I was forgetting the ones I love
but they reminded me that they are here when I need them.
Our Enegries are so strong, my question was answered before I even saw it or rember it .
It was here all the time, I miss them more around the holiday's
and thats when I put my enegry in the Universe to recieve my need
to feel them so they are sent to me to
remind me they are still around.

He "says" our son is "Too Handsome"

What is "Too handsome"? 

 My husband told me that our almost two year old son is too handsome

He get approached everyday. we walked to the park and came to a street as the car stopped at the stop sign a car of three girls, not young kids but young adults 18-21-ish, Steven waves and they all wave at the same time like all there yes were on the cute curly hair boy on the corner. We went to rent a movie and a lady walks up and says she has a two year old nephew but he takes the cake he is simply adorable. Men and women young and old all have to comment on how cool his hair is.

This is why, or maybe the excuse to why we won't cut his hair just yet. Its just to awesome.

This is how I found him after switching over my laundry load, he took daddies plate from the fridge and wanted the BBQ chicken. How could i say no to this face? So I heated it up and gave it back. Daddy had to order out for us.

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BFF....

I didn't forget you,

 I've been so distant because I don't know what to say to you. I wasn't there when I know you probably need me most. I apologize that I treated you this way. I love you and could never do a thing to let you down. I love you more than you know. your my sister, you are my girl, my right hand, whats thicker than blood?  Your friendship means more to me than words could express. Having your spirit in my life has kept me humble. I am the lucky one that you chose to be a friend. I am blessed that I at least got to meet that wonderful man that we lost and even more hurt that I wasnt there that day. I cried that day I felt the hurt your soul endured when losing a man you loved and cherished so much. He loved you more that you could imagine and he is watching you knowing that you will make the right choices with out him here because you are God and your decisions will be perfection.

I love you hunny!!

Miss you madly and always

 xoxoxo

I know I missed ur bday also but don't worry I got you once this baby is out

we have plans ;) *wink*

Question: Are you a stepmom or does your child have one?

<p> &lt;p&gt;Goodmorning,&lt;/p&gt;<br>
&lt;p&gt;Its 6:30 and I've been up for the past hour. </p>
<p>I don't know what to make of this situation I've been put in. Over the years my stepdaughter and I have grown alot together and we've bonded so well. I can't wait until those teenage years. I am just happy we will have a relationship when she's that age, some moms come in the picture then, I'm glad its now.&lt;/p&gt;<br>
&lt;p&gt;In the beginning it was hard she was only five and never had to share daddy before now she had a baby brother on the way and a new mom. It was also hard for me to losen up to her. I made sure I helped her color and clean her room we did have fun together but I wasn't able to cudle her and get that close. As she got older it was easier, I realized we share the same zoidac, we're both sagittarians, her birthday is three days after mine. I began to realize how much we were alike. We have things in common and share the same taste. I then became soft, she began to call me mommy around our second thanksgiving together. </p>
<p>The day she asked me if it was okay if she addressed me as mommy was a day I will never forget. My husband and I were so stunned, what could I tell her? She called me mom until the day her mom found out, baby girl told her mom that she has two moms and we said it was OK. Her mother was so livid we didn't see her for a weeks.
Mom still crosses her lips occasionally, because she knows its okay. She just doesn't want to get scolded by her mom. Her mom once told me that if her dad wasn't home that she shouldn't be with her brother and I she needs time w/ daddy not you.
Yesterday I received a call from her asking how long has baby girl been complaining about her chest hurting? Clueless me didn't have a clue what she was talking about its been almost two weeks since she's been here. What chest pain I reply? As she went on,  I remembered, about a month ago babygirl came to me about pain in her chest, I'm thinking she can't breathe and needed a breathing treatment or something but the pain she was discribing were growing boobs. We laughed and I told her thats the pains of being a girl, jokingly I told her she will start to get hair in places and the conversation was not a heart to heart sit down lets talk kinda of thing, she's only eight and her question seemed more like she was wondering if it were true that when boobs grow they hurt, because that's what she heard.
Anyway, her mom goes on how babygirl wasnt talking to her and if she comes to me again about questions to just tell her go ask her mom.  Now I love that baby girl comes to me and will talk to me about what's going on, she comes in crying after an argument with on of her friends, I listen. We talk.
She asked me to buy her a bra (before the chest hurting issue) and it took me awhile but finially I remembered having one without having any up there(thanks to my sis in-law for jogging my memory) i was the only girl at the sleep over with a matching panty and bra set. My sister in-law brought her some little bras that she was keeping for her from her only other niece, I found the little matching sets.
Her mom was also livid over this,  she refused for her to wear them.
I know the bond we share will only get stronger and I feel as if when the issue of sex comes up that I will be the one she comes to. I don't want to tell her no and have her talk to anyone, especially if she's not telling her mother things. I run everything by her father before I make any decisions and I tell him everything she tells me (even is he doesn't want to hear it).
The big difference between the two moms is one is Goth and one is a girly girl. One cares about their appearence ad the other could care less. One has a piecred face with gauge ears and tattoos the other hates needles.  The child in the middle is a total girl and what "we" like the real mom hates.
Do I listen to the real mom and stop talking to her child or should I look at it as I rather her talk to me that shut both of us out.

Your thoughts on having a Midwife/Doula??

My husband and I or maybe just I have decided to have our child at home.
When our son was born we lives in a small community population black- Me.
I loved it there, my doctor whom was also black woman was nice as can be. the urses and staff even our neighbors loved us. We we treated so kind there. Now that were back in the city I see the change an d I hate the doctors and nurses when I have decided to have the baby. At first I thioght that they were racist but I knew that couldn't be it because my sister raved how she loved this doctor she referred me to. I am having the worse time there. My husband feels it too. Now that i know its not the race thing its more that its the mixed thing. One nus=rse have biracial childreen on her desk but is such a cunt to me. I have realized its because my white boy is here w/ me married me and comes to every appt. when her black man won't or didn't. Don't blame me lady blame your sorry ass man.

Anyway, I decided this after watching a doumentary on netflix, "The business of being born"
It changed my mind in such a wonderful way i started crying. I am so happy w/ this baby I want to be happy the entire experience. When I was pregnant w/ Steven I was more hormonal and PPD. I couldn't let my self be happy. Eventhough the hubby and I tried everything what i feel now i never felt being pregnant w/ him. I want to have this child at home w/ just us. I want him involved because he didnt cut the embillical cord nor was offered. I want the same people around while i'm gowing though the entire expreienbce there or around when my child enters the world. I hated that shift changes and the nurse that helped deliver my son was off and wasnt able to bathe him when i saw her trying to but nurse whose shift was here took over comletely.

When we both look back we want something completely different. We are more inlove now than even and bring our son or daughter in this world is more special that one could imagine. I want to hold my child and not be told after we do this, I want my husband & I to really experience birth. And the love that brough her into the world.

After a long hiatius I'm Back!!

Since my last post many thing have changed in our lives.
March 29 we found out...

We're Pregnant!

12.5 wk ultrasound

17 weeks  6/20

I wasn't sure if I wanted to be happy or mad. I wanted our next baby to be planned and in about year four. Since we both decided no more kids after steven was born, a few months ago we came to the agreement that we were going to consider the thought of welcoming a new child into our lives. I want my girl dammit!

Anyway, in my heart I knew we would welcome another child. Eventually, so
Steven has a buddy and someone who looks like him.
 If your kids look like mineWhy not?

The day we found out we were pregnant I was having some serious stomach issues tthe entire day. I couldn't hold anything down. I had plans on seeing my mother in-law, cousin and aunt were in town. I was so not the host i intended to be. I ended up in bed the whole day with severe cramps, I was schduled have an upper GI scan the next day so we figured it was just that. I've been having stomach problems since my son was born.

That night the pain was so imberable i couldn't sleep and nothing would stay down. Around 1am my husband was awakened agian w/ me huging the porcelin thrown, with the temp of 102. We then decided to go to the ER, where we learned were expecting. It kind of took us by surprise because i was still waiting on my March period, which normally falls at the end of the month and lingures to the next. Only this one would never arrive. I guess you can say its a good thing. We're happier with ourselves and eachother. Were laughing more and arguing less. Were enjoying eachother once agin when we dated so long ago. Sometimes I feel like we missed som dates and a honeymoon, but in due time we'll have our romance back again.

Our adoppted nephew moved out so, we decided to turn his room into "our room" Our little taste of paradise where there is a lock on the door & a sign that reads; "No one under 21 beyond this point".

I have always wanted a stripper pole *wink-wink*.

Anyway, getting back into writing and working. My hours have changes and my days have all become so blended. As I stated before the day I went to the ER and found out about baby I had was visiting the royal thrown the entire day, this lasted my entire first trimester. Around the 15th -16th week I finally began to feel okay. This pregnancy is completely differernt from Steve. i have Morning sickness daily on the hour, headaches, nausea, smells etc. I really couldn't hold anything down the first four weeks. I went from staying up all night writing to sleeping at night and beinmg up in the mornings, where I could never find the time to complete what I wrote because I am on mommy duties. right now hopefully I complete this steven and daddy are both beside me sleeping babygirl is watching TV amd mommy has been trying to post this for the last five weeks.

I try to write at stevens nap time but my body is so exaushed I either nap w/ him or clean and put clothes away. Post a few things to Ebay, yard sale some stuff we just got a new work van so i can do my mom 2 mom sales w/ o the hubby. I am just now getting back to getting my life and body on a schdule that we all can live with. Me staying up until 6am was a agrument w/ my husband because he was in bed and i wasnt, A few things have been solved, because i needed to get steven on a normal life schdule. Sleep at night and up in the morning. My mornings used to begin at noon when i stayed up all night. Once I started sleeping they began at 5am, walk with hubby b4 he left for wk, yoga b4 baby awakes, baby's up, then breakfast. Now being pregnant i'm up at 7 or 8 and same as above i still try to get my 3 walks in a day, I no longer walk w/ daddy but i walk w/ baby when he wakes up or sometimes pop him in his stroller if im up and wanna walk. This pregnancy I want to stay fit as possible. I still practice yoga, now i do yoga mama for pregnant bellies. Steven in normally up by 8:30-9:00. So I only have a small window for mommy time, i hope it gets better as the months progress.

Anyway, I hope this caugfht many of you up with my hiatus, I think i'm back for now. I have so many things to catch you up with and updated pictures of how Steven has grown. Toi I havn't forgotten about you nor how we rock, I think i'm ready to complete it now, I found my closing. And I can honestly say you hepled me truly ROCK!

Texas Roadhouse

The night of our anniversary we had dinner at Texas Road house.

 I have never eaten here so I didn't know what to expect.

I just wanted to eat!

I'm sad because I didn't have the watress take our picture.

I was soaking up the attention of being a food critique.

Taking pictures of food started alot of conversation and

discounts on the bill. Didn't expect that one.

Not only was the food good but the service was supurb.

Our waitress, Kimmy must love her job.

She was on top of everything, before we asked for refills we had them. 

The rolls were always hot & delicious, & the sweet cinnamon butter was devine!

My mouth was in heaven.

Apptiezers

The Blossom®

Our signature hand-battered onion,

golden-fried and served with our Cajun Horseradish sauce

Hers

Grilled Salmon

A fillet salmon steak,

grilled moist and tender and

topped with our special lemon pepper butter.

I also had salad and green bean

His

USDA Choice Sirloin

Our Sirloin Steaks are our most popular because they are hearty,

flavorful, and a great value.

Choose from our 6, 8, 11, and 16 ounce cuts.

Served with your choice of two sides.

I didn't get before pictures before we dug in,

It was like I had a little monster inside of me or something.

Being pregnant, your eyes are always bigger than the bite(in my case).

the picture my mom took after dinner.

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Two years already?

Today April 5, 2012 marks year two my husband and I said our vows to one another./ Two years later we have a beautiful healthy baby boy and who would of thought that year two would mark the year where we continue to grow our family. You heard it we found out that baby #2 is on the way. Won't know the specifics until tomorrow but were hoping for a girl. This time around I have been so nausea's and experience morning sickness lie ever before. With Steven I had no morning sickness or really a pregnant sense, Not even really craves. This baby has made my 7th sense alive, smells a mile away turn my stomach. I'm only about a month along since I only missed March's period. I'm not sure if I'm happy or not yet. I keep forgetting that I'm pregnant. I don't think I'll really believe it until we get the ultrasound tomorrow. My daily exercises yoga and Pilate's don't bother me yet. My diet has not really increased. Just decreased in the poultry and increased in carbs (blueberry pancakes). 

In the beginning my husband and I weren't going to have more children, Then we came to the agreement that we make beautiful children why not when Steven is older. I embraced the next pregnancy instead of my normal pushing it away. "No kids" was my motto for so long. I wanted to be a wife not just a baby momma.

Then the light bulb came on, You are a Wife and a Mother, why not create another, sister or brother. A healthy strong child is all we ask.

As we enter year two of our marriage we also embrace our second blessing. Weather it be a girl or boy we'll still love him or her with joy. I just don't want to lose who I have come to be having another baby. I'm just now getting back to understanding "ME"!

Do I have to stop the progress I've made and go back to the mommy label? Then convert back to me once the baby is older? Or can I continue to grow and mature into the woman I will become.

Since i've already gone through one pregnancy I know what to expect so I think it will be a breeze, Until I can no longer do my Yoga & Pilate's.

Today in My City! 3-7-12

I can't believe this weather, its the begining of March and the weather has done an awesome change.
I think its this solar storm were having. Whatever it is I love iT!

Anyway, Helloooo Spring & Goodbye Winter.

Steven and I were outside all day. He drove his power wheel on our walk to the park. I finally got thoes damn christmas lights off my rose bushes (Don't judge me waiting on the hubby sometimes can take awhile) The old saying, "If you want things done right you better do it yourself".

Anyway, I've also recieved my new GE camera x500 and I think im in love. I can't wait to get this new studio w/ lights and tripods. My hobby has just becaome so much more! Its turning into a profession. The artist in me can't resist, pictures will be posted soon, haven't had the time to actually sit down and write let alone look and edit pix.

Did I mention that Steven finally slept in his bed all night from 8 to 8.
 How awesome is he? Totally!
He is getting on more of a solid schdule and I am so happy my little man is becoming so independent. I don't know what to do with myself sometimes.

My attempt to painting on canvas

I feel as if its not yet completed, but I like it!

Acrylic paints and the learning of blending colors to get what I was trying to achieve.

It was fun and very exhilarating I say try it and you will never know what you'll come up with.

I call it: Feelings

My dear son

 {2mos old}

I cant believe your almost Two! 22 months to be exact.

Today was a very frustrating day, Mommy had little to no sleep. After pulling an all niter writing, or trying to manifest together my thoughts. 6am came rather quick, I was already up to get Autumn ready for school. I surprised her by putting a light bulb in her new turtle nightlight{this girl has more neon in her room than your nearest bar! I added a red bulb because when it shines through the turtles shell it kind of glows a hint of purple since its blue & green. While she gets ready Oatmeal w/ a glass of milk does us both good. It turned out OK, not my best, not realizing I didn't have brown sugar is the reason. But I made it work. After they left, I began to do a little yoga before baby wakes up. Listening to Rhonda Byrne "The Secrets" to get me where I want my meditation to take me. I wake up on my yoga mat.

Its now 9am and Steven wakes up with tears in his eyes. I try to console him but nothing works, with me being so sleepy it didn't help. We lay on the couch and both fall back to sleep. Its now 3, and he's still being whine and only wants me to hold him. Its like he wanted to get closer but just couldn't. He sat in my lap as I typed, and checked email. Well, what he allowed me to check anyway. He wouldn't even let me go pee!

You followed me around, didn't want me to put you down. You wouldn't go to daddy or cousin Austin. Another crying hour what can I do to stop this? I'm trying everything in my mommy bag but its simply not working. Daddy is ready to really jump in and discipline but mommy is understanding and believes its a reason for the behavior and unhappiness you were showing. Hugs and hugs and more hugs, as you squeeze your little arms tighter around my neck I embrace your little hug. Today you were really showing how much of a mommies boy you are. I always put in existence that "I didn't want a mommy's boy" I wanted a little man like daddy. I think the words that the universe received was, "I want a mommy's boy" and I want him to only love me! Trust me he has his days when he wants absolutely nothing to do with me.

He's daddies little Big Guy.

The cutest thing, after coming up from the basement I find daddy & baby cuddled on the couch.  Steven jumps up grabs my hand & points to the couch. I laid down w/ daddy, then he wants me to pick him up so he can lay on me. Its like he said we're out of order, its daddy first, then mommy then me.

He lays back and drinks his sippy. I love this little boy!

Steven your so amazing! I can't believe your putting puzzles together w/ ease. I love your personality{though we need to work on your unruly manners} Your still a pretty cool dude. Learning everyday is want mommy wants you to do until your two. We're going to start potty training and playing school like we used to. Mommy will get back to being your teacher and you my student. I love you my baby, you fill my heart with Joy. I love your smile and how you only want me. People may talk about how spoiled you are but you know what I say? I don't care. Your going to be small for only so long so I want to preserve what we've got at this very moment in time, before I'm buying a car for your prom. Mommy doesn't care what they say your going to remain my baby until my last day. Discipline you still need along w/ manners and etiquette too! Mommy will teach you all those thing so your a perfect gentleman too! You'll open doors, say please & thank you or sign it like you always do. Remember to say your prayers, and stay true to your heart. Don't lie to the girls, always be a gentleman. 

Steven,

Mommy and Daddy have been teaching you sign language since you were a baby. You began to sign back at 10 mos. Now the many signs you know are amazing! Dog & cat you learned with ease. We didn't really learn mommy and daddy since you said them so well. Airplane and helicopter you make the same (but there not). Please & thank you and I apologize too! ball, balloon, bubbles, milk, juice, water, hurt, more, all done, giraffe, elephant, horse, squirrel, book, & I love you. I know there are more and were still learning animals and all the things you adore.

 

 Right now your favorites are: Curious George, you've been listening to classical music since the day you were born. I don't know if you like it yet but you never complain. You love your little Kawasaki power wheel, Books are your FAV, you used to love guitars like you love George, I think you still do. You play your drums daily, and our acoustic in the living room I hear you strum once in a while I know you still love the sound. You also Adore airplanes & helicopters. Cars & Trains.

Did I tell you about the day you wanted to fly? Watching Curious George jump from a helicopter. That day you understood me so well. Your answers were so right on like you really knew what was going on.

Mommy: Steven do you think you can fly?

Steven: Nods Yes.

Mommy: Steven, do you want to jump from a helicopter?

Steven: Nods yes. 

Mommy: Steven, you Do know that you can't really fly? 

Steven; Nods yes. 

Mommy: You know you can't jump without a parachute right?

Steven: Nods yes.

Mommy: Do you want to fly an airplane one day?

Steven: nods Yes.

I laughed and made a promise to you that day. 

I promised that one day when your older, we'll take a trip and fall from the sky

Like George & the man in the yellow hat.

Until then,
Mommy will always catch you, 
 when you fall.

The book Trail

After a long day visiting w/ family I finally cleaned the house (including an overdue toddler room).

Jeffrey went to bed while Steve and I play w/ his new Moon dough from Aunt Julie.

Can I say, I personally LOVE THIS STUFF!!

Its so much better than the boring old play dough and it smells better too!

Its hypo allergic, wheat free,  never sticks, and get this; NEVER DRIES OUT!! OMG! I found my new love of FUN!

As a child I loved dough and moon sand was awesome but this beats it!

Steven loves to make Ice cream cones and dogs, then squishes them up. My sister in-law also gave them cookie cutter shapes for even more fun. I thought he would want to eat it, or keep putting it in his mouth, I stand corrected. He's actually pretty good at just pretending and playing w/ it. Its 3:30a I just put him to bed.

I almost forgot, Steven has these book blocks he loves to play with(wish i had pictures). 
He sits six books on the floor cracked open so that they would stand on their own. Then we count them, two & six are the only numbers he can say but he points to each as I say them. Then daddy joins in for a goodnight kiss, and he wants him to count them to. He is so proud of his achievement he can't stop clapping. He is so awesome, he grabbed up all his books in his little arms and headed to his room, he left a book trail from the kitchen, down the hall and around the corner. 

I love you my son, take your time to grow up please

 I want to savor these memories

Capture every minute of your little growing spirit.